beyond the horizon

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

25 days...todays the last day of january !
n tammy's birthday! happy birthday tammy!
sweet sixteen ! haha. she probably wont
read this but nvm. i'll make it a point to wish
everyone that i know. :D its fun. wow. long
time till the next one. still. it doesnt matter.
today , i am slacking. i think i need motivational
help. cos seriously i dont feel the drive to
study. wat now. i dunno what to do . the past
has just been brought up n tho i am one to
move on almost immediately, it hurts. not
as much, but it hurts. i m so wounded that
i cant go for ballet this friday. im kinda sad
about that. its like my escape. i fit comfortably
there where everyone has that common interest
, ballet. no one saying ballet sucks n things like
that. n i have dear michelle *laughs* there.
too bad she's not going on friday either, she's
also wounded. crystal will have to cope
without us ! haha. everyone who is not in my
ballet class is basically supposed to have no
idea what im saying right now. anyway. my
knee wound is oozing pus. my wrist doesnt
seem to be healing. so i gtg back on friday to
check it again. exactly TWO weeks to
valentines day ! im gonna but balloons like
last year.i shall make it my tradition. hmm.
im just thinking. ive gotten stuff on V day
b4, but never from a guy ! haha. funny. oh
well. i will live for many more years. i'll get
my chance. im suppose to give up guys this
year. as in dont crush on anyone. i have kept
it up for 31 days so far. thats good ok. it wont
last. i know it. but im doing good now. its ok.
i wanna dance. but too bad im injured. oh
well. im so accident prone. i better be more
careful. ive got so many injuries alrd. my
body would become a bag of weak bones.
anyway. ive gotta go. my body has really not
enough sleep. maybe i should email the MOE.
i could propose better schedules that enable
enough sleep. i know im not the only one
falling asleep at school. maybe i will. more
updates...tmr.

the emerald ocean
10:06:00 PM

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Isolation

24 days. quite alot happened today...
but its really late so i'll make it quick.
i fell down during pt today :(. my right
knee has this raw patch now and my
right palm is scratched pretty bad.so
now i am fully wounded. hah. no mass
run, no armpower and no pe for me tmr.
wow. thats alot to miss. n i have to make
up mass run !!!!! ahhh. i dont like. i never
done it. but im seriously not in any
condition to run, even walking is painful.
oh yeah...i spent 2 1/2 hrs doing my maths
hw...den just as i finished, i realised that
there wasnt maths tmr. but i it was good
that i did it today...bcos with my hectic
schedule i wud have forgotten it and had
to blahblahblahblah. so not what im
aiming for. anyway...im so much more
confident about my algebra than last year.
last year my algebra was just crap. n this
year, im actually starting to geddit. my
cousin told me that algebra is really impt
so i have to work hard to perfect it. my
hand is stinging as i type this but oh well...
its ok...ive become tougher i think. well i
was never really a fan of 'display your
emotions' i mostly keep my feelings hidden
unless i want ppl to be aware of it. which
isnt often. i got greeted for the first time !!
by limmin and samantha, haha, we seem to
see them alot, oh well i alrd recognise(sp?)
practically all of them...so, there's no escaping
! haha. well its ok. their sec 1s. we did the
avoiding thing too. so its ok. im not really
bothered . they r sec 1s after all. they can be
forgiven. so i shall be a nice ma'am haha.
sounds funny. victoria ma'am sounds funny.
weird. anyway. i gtg now .i typed this in 10
mins ! with an injured hand !!

the emerald ocean
12:27:00 AM

Friday, January 26, 2007

Vanity

20 days. sorry about the last post. it was
total crap. went to the sin seh today. n my
wrist is sprained so i wont be typing as much.
im not going for tmr's outing. i'll just be a
hinderence. there's homework i need to catch
up on anyway. its sounds so boring but i dont
have a choice do i? im being left at home tmr.
by myself. so i'll figure out wat i wanna do.
i'll probably play o2jam for a bit. do my maths.
blog. visit blogs. blast the music. practice piano.
i wanna cook lunch. i m that bored. anyway.
my parents r kinda pissed off. so its best that
i dont go . i probably wont be going anywhere
unless its secretly after school. other than that
i live a boring life. im kinda pissed off at the world
n myself n anyone that has a reason to make
me pissed. im stressed, frustrated, in need of
sth that i havent figured out yet. i noe its not
guys, i've given them up for this year at least.
it makes life easier, i dont waste time trying
to sort out my feelings. maybe i'll become a
lesbian...hah...lyk thats gonna happen. i am so
not being one. even if i did become one, i wouldnt
be the 'guy'. oh watever. why tok about sth that
wouldnt happened. its pointless. it seems like im
alays getting pissed off at everybody or im
pissing everybody off. i just need somebody who
will understand. tell me what i wanna hear.
god cant exactly help bcos all i need are straight
forward answers n god doesnt ever give straight
forward answers. so im alone in this world till i
find that someone. not boyfriend, good friend,
i have no eagerness to be with any guy at the
moment. it just hurts me, confuses me, basically
adds another problem to my alrd very
problematic life-(sorry to all guys, no offence).
what is that sth i need that i have no clue of.
where is it.
when will i find it
why dont i know what it is
who has/is it
how do i cope now?....

the emerald ocean
10:56:00 PM

20 days. life sucks so much that i wish
it was glass so i could smash it n be gone
forever.life sucks so much that being
dead would be the easy way out.life
sucks so much that i dont even noe why
i bother to exist.life is so unfair that i
wanna smash the people that make it
worst. life is so unfair that i dont even
noe why a word called 'fairness' exists.
life doesnt even make sense now. i
wish the world never evolved from
adam n eve, if it didnt , life would be
so much easier. there wouldnt be
terrorists,global warming,sars,bird flu,
plane crash,corruption,genetically
modifed food...it wud be simple.
seriously...nevermind no tpcs or
handphones, i wud have lived a better
life

the emerald ocean
10:23:00 PM

Thursday, January 25, 2007

tiny kids...stupid wrist

19 days.woah...it'll be up to a month before
i even realise it. oh well...did road marshal
duty at the road safety park in east coast
today. there were SO many pri school kids
asking me questions at the same time. i even
booked a few for disobeying the rules. they're
all so tiny ! haha. n cute. so funny. they were
all looking at us with that 'wow...' face. haha.
it was fun . totally. n we got free coke later on !
n mentos n gummies from iffah ma'am and
edlyn ma'am. thank u ma'ams !!! haha. my
wrist still hurts. n my mum says i should be
excused from pumping n dips bcos i have a
history of a fractured wrist. i forgot again today
n i did the pumping. sheesh. didnt tell my mum.
she sure scold me. ow. anyway...today was
quite hectic anyway. i wonder if the sec 1's
ncos have told them that they need to greet
all their ma'ams yet. as in in school, not only
np. oh well. nevermind. im bored. i got a bit
of maths to do.. the algebra is kinda confusing,
. im asking much more
questions than i did last year anyway.
i changed my whole friendster profile. made
it look pretty scary. anyway. ahhh...tmr
have mass run. heh, when does maths remedial
start? i seriously cant remember. i m dead
tired. oh well gtg practice piano now.
sayonara...

the emerald ocean
8:55:00 PM

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

maths homework...a sprained wrist

18 days. how do i manage to blog everyday?
i just dont know.i just found out that my piano
theory exam is on the 10 march, n my practical
is 16 march ! someone pls tell me its not the
school holidays, there's unit camp ! ahhh!!! im
panicking. shit, n my parents r not helping.i
dunno wat so say. im feeling kinda pissed right
now. no one seems to noe the maths homework.
i neeeeeeed to do it. ms loo will kill me if i dont.
i am so dead, i dont feel like taking the piano
exam anymore. y did i even start learning? omg
this is so shit. i dont wanna do anything. it just
stresses me out n pisses me off. i dont need this
right now. i need things to be simple and calm.
not hectic and stressed. iam physically,mentally
whatever-ly exhausted. i think i sprained my right
wrist. shit.no pumping or dips then. i cant.i cant
even lift my tpc with my right hand. i cant put
pressure on it. it hurts like crazy. it just hurts man
.it better heel fast or i'll be typin out my homework-
with my left hand !i just found out the maths hw.
short post today. but sorry.homework takes
top priority.

the emerald ocean
8:01:00 PM

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

stories...barriers

17 days. damn. the crescent webbie
jammed half-way while i was blogging
so the whole thing closed. wth. nvm.
the thing is ive got an idea for a story. yes
i write stories.occasionally, but i do. i
think its quite a good idea. but i wont
say. its diary based. a diary of an american
girl migrating to singapore and coming
into our lives in crescent. of course cgs
is different in the story but the reality
is there.anyway.its not a fanfic so im not
putting it on winglin. its for my eyes n
my eyes only.hah. maybe...just maybe
if im really satisfied, few lucky ppl
yearning to read it may get to. its all crap
i seem to be crapping alot these days.
nvm. the thing is . im gonna try n finish
this story for once. ok. next subject. i
think i injured my wrist. the one that was
weakened from the fracture. it kinda
hurts when i turn it. oh well...im so
accident prone anyway. found out sth
cool today during music lesson. our topic
today was ballet so obviously when ms
seow(sp?) asked who learned ballet my
name was mentioned. i found out that...
ms pamela was her teacher ! n ms pamela
is MY teacher now. thats so cool. ahhh.
gotta bring character shoes next tuesday.
show the class. maybe i bring my demi-pointes
also. cos she missed them out today.well,
i'll figure that out later. for now, i just think
thats cool. i did plies n grand-plies n valencia
did pirouettes. hers r way better than mine.
mine suck. haiyoh.gotta work like really hard
ahhhh. oh well. wat now...im blogging
practically everyday. oh yes.if any sec 1 NP
cadets read my blog (i noe u do) dont tag. if u
tag.i wont reply. ur not supposed to anyway.
so dont. im gonna write my story now.
..sayonara.

the emerald ocean
10:36:00 PM

Monday, January 22, 2007

16 days. anyone getting fed up with this?
cos im still freaked.soooo...too bad.anyway.
going on the learning journey thingy tmr...
probably very boring. oh well...no choice...
bring digi cam ! ahh. ok. road marshal thingy
on thursday ! get to leave class at 12.30 ! yay !
full uni! haha. i wanna get new unit tee soon.
mine is soooo small. its miniscule. anyway...
the new sec 1 np cadets came down for their
first session today! one girl is like...so omg
...she is disgustingly rude and disrespectful.
un-disciplined too. but nvm about the
discipline. discipline is NURTURED so its ok.
noworries about that. but she is just soooo
rude ! and she doesnt think its wrong.
obviously no one's ever told her she was wrong.
well she'd better learn. or she's just maluating
herself . but how if she's rude and un-disciplined
during her oath-taking? dui lian crescent. omg.
im not boasting but i noe we tried our best to
sit as still as possible throughout everything.
anyway. it was infuriating. ive just about
exhausted my descriptions . oh yea. geraldine
told me she and kana saw her carry a BENCH
and try to break thru the ma'ams using it to
shove her way thru. that just makes me say"
wth...omg...puke...vomit blood...who the hell
does she think she is???"im not the only one
that thinks this...well she'd better figure out
whats wrong...and fast...haha...we,sec 2 squad
'07 are officially MA'AMS !! edlyn ma'am and
iffah ma'am 'dubbed(sp?)' us today during
squad talk. with umbrellas !! haha. so fun.
my posts these days are like totally longer
than before and not so sad also. i think the
black clouds are clearing up. i see a tinge of
blue sky beyond the horizon. that was crap.
nvm. ahah! i shall try and rmb the sizing command:
1.yang tinggi ke kanan, rendah ke kiri, dalam
satu barisan, peras.
2.dari kanan angkat dua bilang.
3.nombor gangil satu langkah ke hadapan,
nombor genap satu langkah ke blakang, gerak
4.orang yang disebelah kanan diam, nombor
gangil ke kanan , nombor genap ke kiri,
barisan ke kanan dan ke kiri pusing.
5.jadikan dua/tigah barisan cepat jalan
yeah !!!! i got it. well ALMOST the whole thing !
haha.i think im crazy oh well. its ok.i gtg now.
parents are gonna scream. this is highly
SNEAKED WORK . ok . sayonara.hasta la vista.

the emerald ocean
10:39:00 PM

Sunday, January 21, 2007

quizzes...4 inch wedges

15 days . i guess the effect is starting
to fade but its still creepy. anyway...my
chinese new yr outfit is on the way to
completion !!! i got a gorgeous pair of
black, 4 inch wedges today!! im totally
taller than my mum when i wear it. my
parents say the whole ensemble makes
me look about 18. haha. but i like it. its
different from my normal stuff. its more
interesting...no pink this yr !! last yr i
took on the girly, pink-and-white look.
this yr its red n black n dark. no so guai.
i think i like this yr's look way better. oh
well a quiz stolen from tammy's blog.
1)How old do you wish you were?
21
2) Where were you when 9/11 happened?
i have no idea
3) What do you do when vending machines steal your
money?
"wth...go die"
4) Do you consider yourself kind?
maybe
5) If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
shoulder,lower back
6) If you could be fluent in any other language, what
would it be?
french,spanish
7) Do you know your neighbours?
vaguely
8)What do you consider a vacation?
no stress.no worries
9) Do you follow your horoscope?
always
10) Would you move for the person you love?
like duh
11) Are you touchy feely?
huh?
12) Do you believe that opposites attract?
yup
13) Dream job?
kindergarten teacher?professional dancer?
14) Favourite tv channels?
disney channel,channel 5,nickelodeon
15) Favourite place to go on weekends?
home
16) Showers or baths?
baths
17) Do you paint your nails?
when there's no school...which is almost never
18) Do you trust people easily?
ya...
19) What are your phobias?
escalators(not jk)...ants n cockroaches
20) Do you want kids?
probably
21) Do you keep a handwritten journal?
tried with no success
22) Where would you rather be now?
at a party(im bored)
23) Who makes you warm and fuzzy?
crushes! HAHA.
24) Heavy or light sleeper?
light...totally light
25) Are you paranoid?
yes.
26) Are you impatient?
yes
27) Who can you relate to?
friends...me
28) How do you feel about interracial couples?
exotic
30) What’s your pick-up line?
"wth"
31) What’s your main ringtone on your mobile?
i have no idea...its always on vibration
32) What were you doing at midnight last night?
on the com
33) What did the last text on your mobile say?
"lalala...i convo u on msn"
34) Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
mine lah.
35) What colour shirt are you wearing?
blue.n its pyjamas
36) Most recent movie you watched?
death note 2. kenichi matsuyama is CUTE.
37) Name three things you have on at all times.
handphone,wallet,mp3
39) How much cash do you have right now?
$1
40) What’s your favourite part of the chicken?
no preference
41) What’s your favourite town/city?
singapore
42) I can’t wait till:
i lose 5kg.
43) What did you have for dinner last night?
ajisen ramen
44) How tall are you barefoot?
1.6m
45) Do you own a gun?
nope.
46) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
milk...orange juice
47) Where do you think you’ll be in 10 years?
married.haha
48) Last thing you ate?
grapes.still eating it
49) What songs do you sing in the shower?
"beautiful soul"
50) Last thing that made you laugh?
the dance floor.
51) Worst injury you ever had?
fractured right wrist.
52) Does someone have a crush on you?
YES.
53) What’s your favourite candy?
jelly beans
54) What song do you want played at your funeral?
"the graduation song"
55) Eight people to do this?
-tessa
-casandra
-geraldine
-andrea
-annie
-valencia
-ashley
-you
the month you were born in...
January—– I kicked
February—– I loved
March—– I smoked
April—– I dry humped
May—– I choked on
June—– I murdered
July—– I did the Macarena with
August—– I had lunch with
September—– I danced with
October—– I sang to
November—– I yelled at
December—– I ran over
Pick the day (number) you were born on:
1——- a birdbath
2——- a monster
3——- a phone
4——- a fork
5——- a Mexican
6——- a gangster
7——- my cell phone
8——- my dog
9——- my best friends boyfriend
10—— my neighbor
11——- my science teacher
12——- a banana
13——- a fireman
14——- a stuffed animal
15——- a goat
16——- a pickle
17——- your mom
18——- a spoon
19——- myself
20——- a baseball bat
21——- a ninja
22—– a model
23——- a noodle
24——- a squirrel
25——- a football player
26——- my sister
27——- my brother
28——- an ipod
29—— a permanent marker
30——- a llama
31——- a homeless guy
Pick the color of shirt you are wearing:
White——because I’m cool like that.
Black——-because that’s how I roll.
Pink——–because I’m NOT a homosexual
Red——–because the voices told me to do so
Blue——–because I’m sexy and I do what I want
Green—–because I hate myself.
Purple—–because I’m cool.
Gray——-because I was drunk.
Yellow—–because someone offered me1,000,000> dollars.
Orange—-because I hate my family.
Brown—–because I was high.
Other——because I’m a ninja.
None——-because I can’t control myself.

"i sang to a mexican because i'm sexy and i do what i want"
wth.

the emerald ocean
9:13:00 PM

Saturday, January 20, 2007

14 days. i dont think of it so much
anymore but if i remember it , its
still creepy.ok...so what happened...
on friday decided not to go for house
party since i didnt need to. so went to
tiong with casandra, andrea n laura. we
at at MOS BURGER !!! i love it . so much
more than macs. haha. oh yeah the colours
that we chose for the outing is like GREEN
n PURPLE . sooo difficult to match. haiyoh.
n i DONT have ANYTHING purple at all.
dunno what to wear. oh well i'll figure it
out.today went shopping for a chinese new
year outfit. well not chiong sam(sp?) or
anything. i got black leggings, n this super
nice red top that goes over it. its kinda
long with a collar that goes over one
shoulder. n it has gathers at the bottom.
its really really nice. i'll take pics n put on
my friendster. n i WAS almost going to
get a pair of freakingly nice black wedge
heels but they didnt have anymore of my
size !! i wanted to scream.it was 79.90.
n my parents were AGREEING !!! ahhh.
wth. im gonna find another outlet n get it.
its GORGEOUS. if i cant, den ive gotta
find a really nice pair of red polka dot
heels/wedges.which was what i was
looking for in the first place. ive gotta get
nice pair of heels.im gonna die. my
parents want me to go for chinese tuition
classes again. those group ones. where
everyone has to 'converse'. n i hate
conversing in chinese to ppl other than
my frens n parents etc. cos my chinese
sux . n my parents just dont get it that
the classes arent gonna help me cos im
not good enough to keep up with all those
ppl that go to classes when they alrd
score straight As. usually majority are
like that. n bcos of that , the pace obviously
would be too fast for me n i'll just be
wasting time , week after week cos i'll have
no idea whats going on anyway. they say
i lack confidence, well the classes are just
going to pull it down more. i only liked
the classes last time cos the teacher was
super nice n i didnt need to say a word for
the whole lesson. n those classes get the
students to read newspaper articles, well,
i'd just be staring at it like its blank. cos i
seriously cant read chinese newspapers. i
tried. im seriously inadequate. i am NOT
going for those classes no matter what,
they cant make me. cos i can be defiant,
n stubborn. they noe it. n if they force me,
they'll regret it. i swear they will. im coping
what. n im trying harder in school. wth. i
didnt fail last yr. i dunno whats their
problem. it is SO a no-no. i cant deal with
anymore classes anyway. my schedule outside
school looks like this:
monday:
3.30-6.30:np
7.15-9:ballet
tuesday:
maths remedial.
wednesday:
4-5:piano
thursday:
3.30-6.30:np
friday:
7.15-9:ballet
saturday:
2.15-3.30:catechism
sunday:
3.30-4.45/6:piano theory.
see. not ONE free day.
i go straight from np to ballet ok.pt day
somemore.im gonna die. exam exam exam.
haais. i'll be suprised if i survive thru this
yr. well wish me luck:D cya.

polka dots...my cny outfit

the emerald ocean
10:28:00 PM

Thursday, January 18, 2007

haha.im in a better mood today...well
MAYBE.12 days...still freaked.haais..
cant get it out of my head. oh well. mr
teo is funny. the other day during
science, he gave a rock to geraldine n
said that if she dented it , he'd treat her
to a free lunch. we all thot he was joking
of course. den...geraldine BROKE IT !!!
like a piece of the rock was dislodged!!
n mr teo was saying sth about being a
man of his word n he did wat he said
he would !! all geraldine needs to do is
tell him when she wants it den she can
order anything she likes from the canteen
n say MR TEO IS PAYING FOR IT. soooo
cool lah. haha. im so-so-so-so-SO happy
that i didnt get the panda virus.oh well...
what was i gonna say? i cant remember...
haha. i love tessa's eavesdropping skills.
dunno wat to blog about. ahh. gtg SHINE
MY BOOTS. i gotta try...well im paying
cas to do it for me. im PAYING WILLINGLY.
but still gotta try.road marshal duties at
the road safety park next week. get to leave
class early !! yay. especially cos its lit. soooo
boring. haha. first mass run of the year
starts tmr. first armpower too. plus there's
health check-up n hse party tmr. wahh
so busy. i wanna try n get home b4 going
for ballet. or else im gonna be ABSOLUTELY
EXHAUSTED. i think im gonna try n do
my NYAA asap. cos i can use ballet n piano
n ATC or unit camp. so i think it'll be ok.
common tests !! ahh...gotta study. my
standard form is ok,ALGEBRA!!!
(a+b)sqr=a sqr+2ab+b sqr
(a-b)sqr=a sqr-2ab+b sqr
(a+b)(a-b)=a sqr+b sqr
yay . i remembered. gd. i better keep
writing it down. or i'll forget. ahh... ... ... ...
NP today !! did sizing. wahh the command
damn long. i cant remember. but i can rmb
the movements.i would write it down, but
i really seriously dunno how to spell the
malay words . nvm. i'll learn. i get syahirah
to teach me. :)i think im going mad. i just
blogged about ALGEBRA. n u'll be like
saying, u just realised?? ok nvm. i think i
am mad anyway. so stressed.wah this post
longer. chinese new year is coming !! new
clothes !! i want that pair of heels !!!!!!!!!
im going crazy over it. i think i want that
most now. next is a new leotard, then new
pointe shoes, then a black leotard then blah
blah...everything else.i am SO random. n
then u'll say, u just realised ?? again. n then
i'll give u that that dark , wth look of mine.
haha. this is the longest post in a while. i
love reading blogs. i think im addicted. haha.
oh well nvm. i wanna have dreams tonite.
no dreams makes sleeping boring. at this
point u will look at me as if im an alien. oh
well.its ok. i dont mind being strange, i like
strange, strange=unique.(u will faint) i am
so random today. thats ok. i feel like dancing.
ahh forgot to try n break in my pointe shoes
. im supposed to try everyday. nows too late
to do.i am saving money. for wat? i dunno yet.
i'll figure it out later. i probably use a bit to
pay cas.her service is valuable ! i dunno wat
to say.ive exhausted everything that hapened
today. oh well , i'll be going then..

black leotards, algebra...

the emerald ocean
10:40:00 PM

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

11 days . yes . still freaked. n angry too
cos i posted sth really nice n long ytd n
when i wanted to publish it, blogger had
an ERROR !!! aahhhhh. so irritating.
anyway, i think this one will be pretty
long too. there's this 'panda' virus
spreading around school. casandra n
geraldine's tablets kena. it basically,
turns all your icons into pandas n disables
your anti-virus n some MS programs,
its really bad. the TA was so full that
geraldine gave up waiting, it was mostly
sec 2 girls. n it spread so fast lor. its
seriously scary. i scanned my TPC n it
found a TROJAN !! ahh. dunno wat to
do now. i cleaned it but it just quarrentined
the damn thing. im probably overreacting
but im allowed to in this case. i backed-up
all my important stuff alrd. my pics n
documents n stuff. so at least i wont/? lose
those if my TPC kena. i was like, PHEW...
when my com didnt get. its devastating.
sheesh.i hope they sort it out soon or i
wont dare to bring my TPC to school. i
really dont wanna get it .ahh. school just
started what...2 weeks ago n alrd have this
kind of thing. im not going online either.
cos apparently geraldine seems to be able
to switch on her TPC with the virus still
eating it up . so im not gonna risk getting
infected just to talk to ppl that i see
everyday. its ok. i can do without it.omg.
i want pointe shoes lah.i mean, i have lah.
but they arent pretty.ahhh....i fell asleep
half-way typing this. sheesh. im tired. like
really. exhasted whatever.this is a really
long post. i gtg now...

pointe shoes n a new leotard

the emerald ocean
6:12:00 PM

10 days. still freaked. welll maybe its
subsiding but it still freaks me. ahhh!!better
not tok about it. just makes me remember more.
i am in LOVE with pointe shoes!!! omg. they are
just sooo pretty. ive got my own. but they arent
very pretty cos they r ordinary. i wanna get those
ones from the US they shine n shine n shine until
you're practically blind.i havent been doing much
lately.i think ms pamela forgot. well...she better
start again. or there's no way i'll pass.im kinda
stressing about it. the EXAM.cos this one is TOUGH.
totally different from the other exams ive taken.
ahhh. imnot really stressing about piano or piano
theory. i dunno y. but im totally stressing about ballet.
im really getting stressed outnow. i CANNOT fail my
ballet. no way. im gonna cry if i fail. im gonna really focus
on my dance when i go to jc. right now. i have to split my
focus umm...5 different ways?y didnt i just stick to one.
there's no way im gonna quit ballet. not after all these
years.i wanna make it worth it. or else, wat have i been
doing for the past 8 years? it'll be all my 8 years of friday
nights thrown down the drain. im not gonna give up. i
feel like wearing my pointe shoes now. i think i will...ok im
wearing it. yay. i gtg. casandra isbugging me to finish the
presentation.

pointe shoes, a new leotard...

the emerald ocean
12:25:00 AM

Monday, January 15, 2007

9 days, still freaked.
im not gonna stop being freaked
unless i encounter a freakier one.
den i'll be freaked about that.
haais.anyway, today we had pt n
SUPRISINGLY, i felt super awake
altho we were running all the time.
less tired than other pts. i like,
enjoyed it, which is strange.my sis
is away at camp, n its kinda weird
without her ard. altho im away
most of the time. i don see her much,
but there's a difference.anyway.
hu's the weird anon person. irritating.
im like so bored. gonna fall asleep
alrd. today, i skipped recess. n i
didnt faint. i'll probably continue that.
i love coloured bras. but obviously
i dun wear to school lah. i wear go
out. haha.i want that pair of heels frm
U.R.S sth. omg . its soooo pretty. i
wanna wear it for chinese new year.
i want it !! my mum says get the outfit
first. den see if the shoes match den
she'll get it. i'll make it match !!! too
bad my mum dont allow me to wear
black during chinese new year.i
want new leotard !!!!! ahhh!!!!! n
pointe shoes. this year got exam, i
gotta get better pointe shoes. haais.
dunno wat to blog about...guess i'll end
here...

tears,pointe shoes, that pair of heels

the emerald ocean
9:49:00 PM

Sunday, January 14, 2007

8 days. still freaked.
haais. the more i think about it. the more
freaked i get. oh well. changed my blog
URL n skin again. got bored of the other
one.CCA day was fun.but i think the sec 1s
were a bit scared of us. well nevermind.
its ok. everyone does that. i forgot what
i wanted to blog about. hmm. i think i'll
bring the cooling fan thingy for my tablet
to school.cos always so hot. then my hand
get burnt. haha.im sleepy. i have yet to
finish my english homework. oh well.
ahh. ms pamela wants to have coaching
classes on MONDAY nights ! means i'll
have to go straight after np. i'll be dead
exhausted. well no choice. i need new
leotards. the other one getting boring.
maybe i get green. cos i alrd have navy,
baby pink,lilac before. n i dont really like
blue. but green is a bit weird. nevermind,
i'll sort it out later. i've fallen in love with
coloured bras. haha. ok so random. anyway,
winglin got prob again. so frustrating. oh
well, gotta go. homework is calling.

two ponytails,chocolate milk

the emerald ocean
7:48:00 PM

Thursday, January 11, 2007

5th day on, still freaked.

CCA day tmr. im not exactly excited.
well maybe i'm just tired.
im really gonna work hard this year.
especially chinese, maths, physics, yeah
tho i dont really wanna do physics next
yr, an overall good grade wud give me the
option of choosing and getting exactly
wat i want. thats y i did my CHINESE
hw. well i gotta get some help frm
casandra tmr morning. but hey im
trying. i got some questions n doubts
n im getting them cleared. lyk finally.
i actually managed to pass my chinese
without paying attention or studying or
doing hw last yr. amazing huh. so this
yr im aiming for a B4 at least. n thats with
paying attention, studying n doing hw. so
not impossible. also. im aiming to lose 5kg.
i hate my weight. it totally sux. maybe i
dont look fat. but i feel it. 5kg off wud feel
great.wats tight wud be loose. yay. maybe
training n doing cross country will help.
plus np. so its not impossible. just a slow
process. i learnt my ting xie also. yay, i
tested myself 4 times n got it all correct.
so i shud be fine. i gtg straight for
ballet after skool tmr. n thats kinda sucky.
dancing in t-shirt n shorts is not the best
experience.this is the longest post i've
posted in a while. just felt lyk tokin n
typing in pink. haais. i will continue
loving PINK no matter wat anyone says.
no. i will not sucuumbe (sp?) to peer
pressure.i tied 2 ponytails n skool today.
im gonna do it again tmr. its fun. exactly
the kind of 'i-dont-care-wat-u-think-im-
gonna-do-wat-i-want' thing that i lyk.
im subtlely hyper at the moment. i slept
on the bus on the way home today. i
felt all awake after that. ok i gtg. get my
beauty sleep.

gonna be a ma'am. gonna be a ma'am.

the emerald ocean
11:35:00 PM

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

omg i hate running.
but who has a choice?
BRING on THE CROSS COUNTRY
i WILL die half-way.i just KNOW it.

the emerald ocean
7:59:00 PM

i'm still freaked out abt that dream
n its been 4 days...haais...school is
kinda boring at the moment. nth
exciting . luckily CCA day is on friday
. that'll be fun. im addicted to fanfics,
thats not good. oh well, as long as i pay
attention in class n not get into trouble
i'll be fine. that was so random.ohh...
im dead bored.dunno wat to do. im
supposed to be writing an essay. but
i dunno how to write it. haais...dunno
wat to blog abt...so sian. dunno y im
even blogging. oh well...i just posted
sth on our wireless problem in mlg...
finally. haiyoh. im bored bored
BORED...

the emerald ocean
5:39:00 PM

Saturday, January 06, 2007

last nite.i had the weirdest dream. i hate it.
its just so wrong. i dreamt i was a lesbian.
n i had a gf ok. im not saying hu but i clearly
knew hu it was. it was not andrea. someone
else. it totally freaked me. n u noe today is
cynthia ma'am's black belt grading? i dreamt
she died just as she reached there. the lesbian
dream kinda dissolved into that one. it
totally freaked me. it really did. the lesbian one
more. it was so wth lah.i wont go into details
cos its kinda sick . but it was SO WRONG.

the emerald ocean
10:46:00 AM

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

my new year's celebrations were the best.
it was lyk, in the middle of the afternoon ,
my dad got a call frm my uncle (his bro) n
he said that he got a room at the marina
mandarin with a great view of the fireworks.
n would we lyk to come? n of course we wanted
to go rite? yea so that nite, we were super lucky
n managed to get into marina square which
was said to have 150 000 ppl in there at that
time. so we had dinner n den up to the room !!
it was only my family n the timmy n rebecca grp,
the others didnt come. so sad. they totally missed
the best experience. it was a blast. i mean, we
were sooo near that everytime fireworks exploded
we felt the balcony shake. it was soo cool. i got alot
of photos n i'll upload them asap. it was sooo fun !!
it took us lyk 1hr to get home. n we were soo
exhausted. den the next day, (ytd) i went to watch
death note 2 !! i didnt even watch the first one but
this one was great. Ryuzaki/L. looks lyk yak ka ma'am
ya. total likeness. anyway. misa is super pretty n
ryuzaki is cute !! i dont like light's face. not nice.
this is lyk the first time that im actually crazy over
an asian actor. im not racist or anything. but i just
havent come across a really nice looking asian actor
lately. omg. ryuzaki ryuzaki.

the emerald ocean
4:48:00 PM