Monday, October 30, 2006
it came lyk a gust of wind, hit me
b4 i even realised it,it engulfed me
but i lyked it.the coolness of the
breeze, gave me the warmth i've
been longing for.it wrapped me in
a blanket of safeness. it made me
feel lyk none other had b4. time
passed,tho little,the intensity
the happiness,never ceased to
make me laugh.this wind has yet
to pass.i am not waiting for the
day when it will...
the emerald ocean
11:55:00 AM
what if , parents accepted the way
their kids are. no matter wat,
supported their EVERY decision.
n stuck wiv them thru it all. i think
the world wud b a happier place.
kids wud hav all de opportunities
in de world to go out n explore their
lives.if only....
the emerald ocean
11:49:00 AM
Thursday, October 26, 2006
i hate anything n everything dat
makes life even more confusing
den it alrd is....
this sucks SO much
the emerald ocean
5:51:00 PM
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
LOVE...
the emerald ocean
11:27:00 PM
Monday, October 23, 2006
to my most wonderful, ever
supportive cousin,tessa:
ur more lyk a sister to me than
anyone else, ur lyk my twin
almost. yeah we dont look a like
n we have some diffs but when
it comes to a girl that i can spill
my sorrows to, its u. i never
told anyone more secrets n nvr
trusted anyone more. ur always
there to cheer me up. put a
smile on my face. least i could do
is return it to u. we didnt always
get along. rmb? i used to hang
with tammy more. but that was
just the passing over. we used
to fight sometimes. i hope u read
this, u probably will. i just want
u to noe, that i've never had a
better cousin.
crescent is anxiously awaiting ur arrival:)
the emerald ocean
11:09:00 PM
i have never known any other person
that could take ur place . tho i thot
others would be alright, they were all
a pasing phase. den i realised , it ain't
worth it, i noe hu is really there. all
i am doing , is trying to fool myself into
thinking that i could be happy with
elsewhere. it wasnt right, i knew it frm
the start , but some things seemed
better swept away. only there was too
much dust to hide. i tried, for 3 long
yrs. to clear the thot of u away. but it
always came back on those lonely sad
days when i wished i had someone
that understands n would talk.
whenever i need it. all the time, i nvr
knew , we were keeping the same
dark secret. not wise to be known
or else frowned upon. awkward
moments were born on
16.10.2006...
the emerald ocean
10:38:00 PM
Friday, October 20, 2006
i've known jeremy for a week . n all
this while i've had no idea wat he
looks lyk. today, i finally found out.
me n annie went to meet jansen and
jeremy at ps, it was SO weird, we
were at macs n dey came . dey didnt
dare to come in. or sth , jeremy didnt
say lyk anything at all the whole time.
so i didnt bother saying anything. i
tried but no success. well then gm was
coming so we went to meet her at the
bus-stop. we saw sam gay n after dat
we sortta led them to pastamania n
left them there, sam gay, gm , jansen
n jeremy. den me n annie went of n
got ice cream-mango. then we went
back n sortta hung on the sidelines.
then we walked around for a while
den annie had to go. n jansen was
dunno where. so left four of us. we just
walked around until 4.15 den me n
gm had to go. so we went. it seemed
pretty pointless , except that i found
out wat jeremy n jansen look lyk n
exatly how nervous jeremy was.
it is SO confusing...
the emerald ocean
5:54:00 PM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
i just keep getting more surprised...
making sense of it all would be a
failed experiment.
my position is on the edge of a cliff.
so precarious that even the slightest
breeze could cause a disaster.
so i cant move.
wat do i do?
nothing.
cos i can't...
the emerald ocean
6:50:00 PM
Monday, October 16, 2006
no other day this year can beat
today at being the weirdest day ever
u noe , we've all heard of teens from
next-door schools pairing up rite?
but who ever heard of ST.PATS n
CRESCENT ??thats lyk miles away.
well its SO true. everyone noes abt
gm n sg so thats old news BUT
somehow it has led to other things.
this guy, j ,lyks annie cos
he saw her friendster . n worst. a guy ,
js n gig lyks me. oh
man. i have no idea how this js
looks lyk n wat he's lyk n gig-
OMG he is lyk my cousin . that
is a bit much for me . im lyk totally
confused n ahhh. its just lucky that
the EOYs r over so i've got all the time
in the world to ponder.
the emerald ocean
6:34:00 PM
Sunday, October 08, 2006
to cas n ashley:
the no sensitivity thing wasn meant for u ok,
i noe u all didnt do anything.
i noe ure probably so angry dat u never
wanna forgive me. i don't blame u ,
if u don't want to forgive me. i can't force u
the emerald ocean
12:31:00 PM
i wanna wake up n find dat
its all a bad dream.
if it isn't.
then im gonna destroy sth
the emerald ocean
11:52:00 AM
ok fine.
i GIVE UP.
forget it.im wrong . im wrong.
i dunno wats happening.
i dunno
i dunno
i dunno
n aren't i entitled to being angry ?
when im angry, the blog posts tend to
get angry. so forgive me .
moods affect blog posts.
n gm said i don admit to defeat.
well. i just did right.
i just dunno.
i give up.
its MY mistake
the emerald ocean
11:32:00 AM
Saturday, October 07, 2006
everything is just so messed up. i dunno
wat to think or do or say anymore.one
wrong move n it just gets messier.life is
SO unfair. it just doesn't make sense.
[well nothing does nowadays] its just so
complicated. y can't ppl keep it simple.
life would be so much easier.
(to cas: annie WILL give back ur money.
if ur her fren , u'll trust dat she will n
u'll bother to wait.i did.n i still do.)
'a REAL fren is one who walks in when
the rest of the world walks out'
i believe in that too. just hoping i can do
that. if i HAVE done . someone pls tell
me. one of my aims in life is to find the
TRUE fren i never had...
the emerald ocean
4:10:00 PM
Friday, October 06, 2006
omg i can't believe it . today, gm told
me dat de only reason dat annie wanted
me to go to ps wiv her (which i did) is
bcos she wanted to use my fone. n de
only reason she wanted to go dere was
bcos she wanted to meet a bunch of guys.
i SO don't believe dat. i mean how can
dey think dat she's lyk dat. its so mean.
n i read the email dat valencia sent to
annie. n well dat kind of email,in my
opinion, can be VERY hurting if is not
true.n i can't believe gm N valencia N
cas N ashley all feel dat way. i mean i
noe gm n len alrd felt dat way,i mean
dey wanted to ditch her ok. but ashley
n cas didn't feel lyk dat,well not to my
knowledge. n dey all r being really ...
i dunno . i just don't understand how dey
can do dat . don't dey have any
SENSITIVITY towards other ppl's
feelings? god. i don't believe it . n dey're
my FRENS ...
the emerald ocean
7:05:00 PM
Thursday, October 05, 2006
omg...
i
am
13
yes finally the teenAGE has arrived.
haha...its de middle of the exams but
i couldn't resist blogging on my birthday
thanks to all the ppl for the FANTASTIC
presents...
[tessa][casandra][ashley][valencia][mummy][godma]i am gonna shop next wk...i SO am.
n with some luck...maybe pierce second
ear hole. YES. oh well...
i have such a long wish list dat it is
impossible to fulfill. oh well... everyone
has dreams don't they ?
i am going to AUSTRALIA in nov...
lucky me.
im hoping i can bring this trusty tablet
along so i can BLOG.
yes.
only 2 papers left...sci n maths
well dey aren't that bad compared to lit
n geog...
i lyk this :
a FRIEND is someone who understands ur past, believes in your future andaccepts you today just the way you arei really love it...i think it is so true...i just
hope i have a friend lyk that...
im so tired. i really am. one look at me n
u can tell.haais...saddening...the things
i have to endure to do well in exams...
oh well...
don't have a choice do i ?
the emerald ocean
6:22:00 PM
