Wednesday, November 29, 2006
I HATE LIFE
I HATE GUYS
I HATE PPL HU HURT ME
I HATE COWARDS
I HATE EVERYTHING THAT MAKES ME ANGRY
I MOST HATE THE ONE THAT I THOT I CUD TRUST THAT I THOT WAS MY FRENTHAT I THOT I CUD MAKE ME HAPPYBUT WIPED ME OUT OF HIS LIFE WITH ONESMS. THE DAMNED ****IN IDIOT .ASKING Y I AM ANGRY WUD BE THE STUPIDESTTHING U CUD DO AFTER READING THIS.
the emerald ocean
9:28:00 PM
Monday, November 20, 2006
in 7 hrs i'll be on a plane. but thats
not y i blogged. the thing is, it seems
that parents never
really listen to u
when u try to explain anything. they
hear u , but they never
listen. i've
found a way to get through to them,
writing. it happened just an hr ago.
i took i piece of paper n wrote down
everything i had to say,n watever i
didnt dare to. i gave it to my dad. n
he accepted it. try it.bet it works
the emerald ocean
11:08:00 PM
i just watched cheaper by the dozen 2
-for the second time. but its even better !
taylor lautner is SSSUUUPPPEERRR cute
hahaha. im crazy . anyway no posts til next
wed. going to AUSTRALIA !!!
the emerald ocean
3:23:00 PM
Monday, November 13, 2006
suddenly my tagboard is alive
again...n everyone is talking abt
the same thing...geez...going to
australia soon...i might just bring
my tablet along...if parents allow
lah...if i beg hard enuff it might
work...MIGHT...yea...if it does
i'll blog everyday...ahhh...tessa
stayed over at the chalet n at
my hse...we had the best time...
man...we gotta do this more often
...haais...i gotta get new slippers,
mine broke...i wanted new ones
anyway...n excuse to go SHOPPING !!
the emerald ocean
7:01:00 PM
Friday, November 10, 2006
its tessa's birthday,yup. n im here
at a suite in raffles town club with
tessa n 2 of her frens . slumber
party ! :) we were at wild wild wet
just now , for abt 3+ hrs...so super
fun. it was the best lah...haha i saw
elgyn there, he saw me there also.
wasnt sure if it was him at first so
didnt say hi. but it was in the end,
cos i smsed him . so funny . haais
vanessa's gonna be so jealous, too
bad she still has skool.we started
out pretty early anyway...i think
i sound different in this post, maybe
happier then the past few, well
duh, this morning at 9.08 am, i
got attached, yup. but i bet i dont
need to say hu im attached to,
most of the readers wud noe
anyway...but those that dont,
initials- g.i.g yeah . haha . haais
...feel different maybe, i dunno
hope there's no distinct diff or
parents r sure to be suspicious.
well...they wont noe, im not stupid
enuff to tell...well happiness, thats
all i can say
the emerald ocean
12:47:00 AM
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
dreams do come true. but mine
is showing no signs of surfacing,
i havent actually figured out wat
exactly is my dream,i've got it
vaguely but its no where near a
clear picture...i guess i need some
sort of
confirmation...i've found,
that even after a year of trying,
im not so sure of the real me.i
dont noe wat makes me really
feel lyk me. i've tried different
things . lyk rebellious e.g. i cant
figure out wats the most real.
i've tried so many different
things that i dont really noe wat
i am. its not lyk i have to impress
anyone , but i just gotta find out
wats the most fitting. this all
makes me sound psycho, im not
. im just stuck here , confused
i guess...
the emerald ocean
9:58:00 PM
Monday, November 06, 2006
when everything fits in a puzzle dere
is great satisfaction but wat happens
when u want to frame it up? u got to
glue it first,but wat if the glue didnt
want to dry fast, it took it own sweet
time and u were getting fed up. that
is eactly wats going in my life. i noe
its dere but not sure if its confirmed-
'glued'n its taking so long that im
getting tired waiting, i cant be sure,
n to ask is awkward, it isnt rite, n i
cant fix it. not on my own. it needs
two to make it right...
the emerald ocean
10:43:00 PM
Sunday, November 05, 2006
dunno if its worth the wait,
i cud give up all hope n accept it as my fate,
i cud hold on tight n just be patient,
but i cud wait 4ever n nth wud happen,
i thot i understood wat i saw,
but hu noes now its all lost,
dunno if to go on believing,
or to drop it all,
nth is clear,
i dun understand,
waiting is wearing me down,
i cud be wasting half my life,
ignoring opportunities i cud have taken,
and later ,
regret waiting,
but if i pass this,
i cud be throwing away my 1 n only chance,
then,
i'll regret not waiting,
i hate this,
its not that difficult,
all i need is one simple word,
then i cud get on with impt things...
y cant this be easy
the emerald ocean
6:35:00 PM
