Monday, May 07, 2007
i'm thinking of abandoning this.
just thinking.
go find me at
http://emeraldhorizon.wordpress.com
the emerald ocean
6:35:00 PM
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
fucking hell...
MID-YEARS
the emerald ocean
8:01:00 PM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
get the fucking hell out of my life.shit.victoria, stop it.pull yourself together,don't think about _____ anymore.its not good.don't do it.(don't bother counting the underscores, they're random)
the emerald ocean
9:35:00 PM
i don't know what to do anymore.
what to say,what to think.
who am i? in your mind?
am i just another girl?
i'll breakdown if thats what i am
cos all this time i told myself,
i can't get into it,
i can't let myself get hurt.
but now that i think i can trust you.
you'll break my heart if you say
i'm just another one.
i'm not a stupid old-fashioned girl,
i don't fall for your every sweet word,
i'm suspicious at everything you say,
cos i can't get hurt, not again,
i watch for a trick,
i wait for the kill,
i make sure i'm comfortable
before i trust you,
so don't betray my trust,
its a valuable thing to hold,
please don't make me cry,
sometimes i worry,
that maybe, just maybe,
you'll get so angry that you'll leave me,
cos i wouldn't be able to bear it,
i'd just cry where ever i am,
i want you to hold me forever,
tightly in your arms,
but how would i know,
you might just wanna go,
and i won't ever get you back...
its just my thoughts, paragraphed.
forgive the sloppiness.
the emerald ocean
9:02:00 PM
Monday, April 09, 2007
seperation anxiety.nevermind about that.anyway.i'm pretty lost.i think blogging makes me emo.yes,it does.brings out the inner feelingsthat are unnecessary,makes me think of the past.i'm starting a story.gotta see where its going,it might actually have some depth.anyway,i might post it here.when its done.which is,maybe never.anyway,i'm super sleepy.and guess what.my dad bought me my own printerand scanner! i love my dad. this is way more freedom.happiness,haha.i got a headache.stupid mass run.i hate mass run.i dun wanna run.ughi'm totally crapping can?ugh. gtg
the emerald ocean
10:05:00 PM
Sunday, April 08, 2007
kiss this girl goodbye,
sing her a lullaby,
cos this is the last time,
you'll ever see her...
when tomorrow comes,
there's just the empty bed,
she'll be gone so far,
you'll never get her back,
she won't be all alone,
cos someone else is missing too.
both of them have gone away,
to a land that only they can find...
you will be crying,
that she has left you there,
but its your own fault,
she held on so long,
she knew she couldn't wait anymore.
so she left,
her shadow swept the doorway,
she was running down the path,
so silent that no one awoke,
you tried to find her,
but it was too late,
she was gone to a place,
where she can forget you...
but she knows she can never get away,
as long as you long for her,
the memory will stay,
she's trying to fight it,
she may be back someday,
she knows she belongs there,
she knows its for the best,
so let her go.
stop longing for her,
let her be happy away from you,
let her go.
she's crying,
she knows you aren't letting go.
she's crying,
she's all confused,
she's crying and she'll never stop,
til she comes back to you,
but she's strong,
she knows she should never come back,
stop making her more confused,
let her go,
it is time,
let the past be the past,
don't try to make her come back,
let her be happy there,
let her go...
once again.i wrote this
the emerald ocean
11:34:00 PM
sometimes i wonder if x has a secret life
that no one knows abt. of if x is secretly
in love with someone. thats just siao. but
one cant help but be curious. anyway,
onto happy things, i got my haircut today!
yay. i've been wanting to do that. it looks
better now. and and and. i ordered a new
pair of specs ! green frameless. i've never
had green. so i thot i'll try it. my
astigmatism went up. the whole thing plus
lens cos $270. wah. freaking ex. my astig
is over the shop's usual range alrd. left is
275, right 250. thats super scary ok.
singapore only gets specs uptil 400. im only
sec 2! omg. they have to special order lor.
so i can only get it in 7-10 days time. i got
a new pair of slippers. my black ones broke
after mass. anyway. today was an ok day.
one of the better sundays.
oh yeah, saturday was suppose to be the
preview for NPDP but it rained like siao.
thunder n lightning and everything. haha
but it was so so so nice. we got to put our
stuff in the classrooms. gold unit flag bearers
were in classroom 39 =D haha. there's only
seven girls out of thirty six of us ok, omg.
we got to have our meal in the mess hall!
its considered special. cos we got tables and
chairs. n cheese n potato wedges! and drinks!
not just water. it was so fun. n i got to wear
number 1 quite alot. i got the NPDP polo tee!
its nice. n its so sad cos i can only wear it for
NPDP trainings, den it'll be left to rot. cos all
my squadmates don't have it so we cant like
all wear it for camp or what. dunno what i'll
do with it. anyway.straight after training, i
went back on mrt. rushed home. bathed,
changed, den walked to the yeow's place.
joined in BBQ. wah. i was damn tired. anyway,
this thursday is unit stand down ! yay. omg.
so needing the break. but, if im lucky,(ha)
they might just decide to have extra NPDP
training on that day. if they do, i will scream.
ok. i gtg finish my maths n learn ting xie.
haiyoh.
sth's fishy
the emerald ocean
9:06:00 PM
